The ten peaks..
I don’t know how to explain to you
What I experienced today.
What my eyes gazed upon
While yours were asleep
It’s as if I’ve arrived on a different planet
One that is just my own.
Everything sparkles, breathes and lights up and echoes
What I see is a galaxy, a dimension too beautiful to ever try to piece in the mind
How has it taken so long
For me to get here
When I always somehow knew it is here I belong.
The mountains make my soul stir and sing and entwine with all that is love in the beauty of nature, life and songs.
Just quiet, blue, and landscape twinkling in sunlight
And now I will never be the same
Life altered, changed.
Today the world looked inside of me.
And I looked back.
Unable to say a word with enough meaning to describe what took me away.
Unable to mix enough covers to display all the ones that made up today.
That made up my mind.
That healed what I haven’t found the power to heal.
That shook my insides.
That reflected like light in a rainbow injected into my veins and glowing in the core of my heart.
“we’ll all float on, alright”
Words reduce reality to something the human mind can grasp, which isn’t very much. Language consists of five basic sounds produced by the vocal cords. They are the vowels a, e, i, o, u. The other sounds are consonants produced by air pressure: s, f, g, and so forth. Do you believe some combination of such basic sounds could ever explain who you are, or the ultimate purpose of the universe, or even what a tree or stone is in its depth?
The moment you become aware of the ego in you, it is strictly speaking no longer the ego, but just an old, conditioned mind-pattern. Ego implies unawareness. Awareness and ego cannot coexist.
May 24th
Today I was taken from a dream to the sound of my alarm
The sound of reality, is probably the ugliest sound any of us has ever heard.
But I’ll still dream while I’m awake. I think in a universe all too separate from this one.
But I’m learning to accept each emotion as it captures me, eventually it makes it easier when it’s time to let go.
Being on my own isn’t any different than what i had hoped or expected it to be.
Each day is getting better and I can feel summer climbing over the horizon.
Most likely to be the summer I’ll never forget.
But today is Nina’s birthday and I’m
Not there to stand beside her as she blows out her 23rd candles.
I telepathically send my love and best to you, I hope this birthday will be hundreds of times better than all the ones before. People forget that you have a light and this it is to be awed upon. Remember to turn it up when it starts to dim. There’s a way to use it at all times. That’s the light that can guide you for whatever your deepest thought or desire may be.
Someday I’ll be home, and I can’t wait to shower you with gifts and hugs and fill the gap in between.
I’m feeling tired but not as tired as I used to be. I have a different energy now, and this one will be who I am.
Not defeated in a negative darkness which seemed to be all I knew.
I miss you parents and sisters. More than words could try to spell.
I wish I could celebrate this day with you over cake and wine.
But we all know that will eventually happen again someday soon..
See you in a future day. Xo
All my love,
B
If you have ever untangled a ball of string, you know that yanking and pulling only makes it worse. You need to very gently and patiently unravel the knots. Be gentle and patient with yourself as you untangle your own mental knots, and love yourself in the process. Willingness to let go of the old is the key.
